With the guidance of my coach Matt, I soon realised that being present in each of my steps, rather than concerned about the speed of others was how this was going to happen for me. With this comes a trust that if you completely surrender to simply running within yourself, you may, in fact, run swifter than you had ever dreamt of. (Or not, either way you'll have more fun) Being able to find this connection whilst still 'racing' is such a gift.
I trust so deeply that we run most freely when our mind is clear of thought and our heart is open. Have you ever captured that moment where you are smiling as you run, not noticing points of resistance, but rather are immersed completely in the beauty and joy that surrounds you in nature? Finding and staying in these 'moments' as I runs will forever be my practice. Most days I get there, some days...not so much. I have an ego too of course and yes...it visits me from time to time. It visited me at GOW this year...it didn't go well. :-)
Running is simply what I need it to be.
It is a vessel to create flow in life, an outlet, an inlet, a pressure valve, a counsellor, a friend, a social networker, a confidence booster, a way of nurturing health and a way of staying connected to my body.
One thing running is not...is a measure of self worth. I feel if ever running becomes a negative, or creates a sense of 'ranking' within our spirit, it is then that we need to take a step back and reconnect to our purpose.
We are all unique, talented and diverse humans. We travel this world in different ways, at different speeds, each adding value to our earth and the lives of those around us. Running trails is beautiful as are the people you meet along the way. My year without my watch has seen me connect to my running in a way I had only dreamed of.
So for now my watch will stay on the shelf...or on my children's wrists as it often is :-)